I’ve said it more than once, but I’ll say it again: "I have come to realize more and more that the greatest disease and the greatest suffering is to be unwanted, unloved, uncared for, to be shunned by everybody, to just be nobody to no one" - Mother Teresa
That will no longer be the case for my lil’ girl. She is wanted, cared for, loved, and near and dear to my heart. She is a blessing from my Heavenly Father and I am beyond blessed.
I am so thankful the Lord opened my eyes to the true injustice of orphans around the world, back in 2009, in China. It was then that the Lord opened my eyes to the vast need of so many unwanted, unloved, uncared for children. Ever since then He has used it to weigh on my heart and drive to action, all to bring me to the place I am today…5,000 miles from home, looking into the eyes of a beautiful lil’ girl who needs a mommy.
And finally being able to look into those big beautiful eyes, has been one of the most amazing days of my life! It has been a long time waiting, to receive an official referral. It makes it seem more real, and offers extra assurance that no one else is going to try to adopt her, while I’m waiting for a court date. It’s as though I can now say (not that I haven’t been already), this is my daughter, with more assurance that this is the lil’ girl the Lord has for me. As of Wednesday afternoon, it will no longer be a concern as she will be “claimed for” (by me) and no longer available for adoption unless a family member steps up and wants to pursue her (however, I am not concerned about this happening). Anyhow, just to be here and finally meet her for the first time…it’s surreal! She is so worth it all…all the paperwork, all the time, all the tears and prayers, and yes even all the $$$. She is worth it and so much more! I would give it all, all over again.
When I saw my daughter’s eyes light up for the first time and saw this big, beautiful smile stretch across her face, I melted. What the social worker had to share, about her and her past no longer meant anything. She was perfect and there was nothing she was going to say, to change my heart. Thankfully, they are going to translate her entire file and give it to me after court, since I missed much of what they were sharing, because I was more interested in holding and whispering, “Ya lyu-blyu te-bya” (I love you) and “Vsya ho-ro-sho” (it’s all right), to my V.
I wanted to get on my knees and ask God, why He is so good to me. I know, to many, I do not appear to be the most qualified for the race set before me. However, I was obedient and willing…and I believe that’s why I’m here right now…because I was willing. And for those of you who have stood beside me, encouraging me throughout the last 6 months and even the months leading to my decision, I thank you.
She is everything I prayed for and so much more...and soon we will be walking hand-in-hand through an airport to head HOME!!!!
